This Might Just be the Return of the Throne (Repost)

​Recently had someone reach out and essentially say that although they feel I had wronged them in the past, they forgive me or don't want me to live with regret or something along those lines. (I was very inebriated at the time because it was a day, so, I remember the shape of the discussion but not all the brush strokes, so, I just don't wanna put words into anyone's mouth.) I find that kind of gesture very generous and one that takes a lot of humility/compassion. (So, naturally, I made the next correct move and asked to borrow money.) It got me contemplating some people from my past who I feel wronged by and whether it is shameful of me to not do the same for them. This is a laundry list of people, friends, family, roommates, former coworkers who took advantage over others sometimes including myself. Ultimately, naw, fuck 'em. I can forgive actions and anything anyone's ever done to me, whether I enjoyed it or not, has come to pass and was something I was able to learn and grow from. I'm thankful for others' mistakes I could learn from. On the other hand, I have deep guilt sometimes about moments in which I had the opportunity to be kind but took a lesser route. I don't want anyone in the world feeling hated or associating me with any kind if negativity although I can't blame them if they do have less than glowing reviews of my past for any reason. With that said, I forgive actions but some philosophical differences are too great to be worth the effort of building any bridge across. I have no interest in someone who has no honor, no integrity, no courage, no respect for others. I have at one time or another lacked all those qualities and could still strengthen every one of them. (Gotta grind every day to boost your stats.) I hope those people have healthy happy lives and are given the opportunity to grow and refine themselves in the same way I have been granted. That's just not my business. I have no moral authority to judge anyone else and that includes any self-righteous, "You have been granted forgiveness by Todd Daniel Crawford" ecards. They have my forgiveness but that isn't worth a receipt.

Just realized this may come off as being humorous about the anecdote it began with or something. It isn't. That had a larger context of friendship and a longterm bond that was put on hold and moving past the past. The later examples are people I simply have nothing in common with and no reason to reestablish any communication with.